Well, I haven't been around in a while. I blame the lack of caffine and boring routine. I'm lucky I can keep writing.

I get to see the new pixar movie today! Yippeee!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

i'M TWENTY-THREE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

8 hrs till spring break! I'm very excited, but I still have to finish a 3-5 pg paper for one of my classes this afternoon. Then I have a lot of books to read and work at Chilis for the break until I go home on Wednesday. *sigh* my real break doesn't start till way later. :)

Totally shouldn't have gone to BSM (Baptist Student Minestry) tonight, but its an awesome revival of the heart. I get chapel three times a week, but BSM includes small group times that are just revitalizing to have with other believers.

Its amazing. I'm getting so much opportunity to learn and grow with God. Years ago, I would have easily excused myself from the BSM b/c of schoolwork, but instead, I go out of my way to push back schoolwork so I can worship. Hehehe...

I bet God is snickering at the irony...

8 hrs in the library defining random words for Biblical Hermeneutics can eat away at your sanity... especially when you aren't finished the project & are about to tackle the hardest two...

Not to forget to mention pyschological assumptions paper & marriage interviews assignment.

Birthday is coming up. Turning the big 2-3. I'm still young, but my body feels the beginning of age. Ugh. Afterall, I'm scheduled for a scope two days after my birthday. Happy dance!

Got back from work at 1am and realized another weekend had snuck up to bite me in the rear. I'm only taking 10 hrs and only attend school 4 days a week. Each week is a weary process of keeping a few inches ahead of my homework and juggling 20 hrs at Chilis.

Not to mention it takes every effort to get through my stack of reading material. I'm no idiot, but the people who wrote my schoolbooks were too smart for their own good.

What are my plans? To survive the weekend of studying & online test taking.

Hopes? To see my next birthday--at the rate school is going, I don't see a happy future.

Sorry, I've been non-existant. I've been buried under a mountain of work. As of right now my homework for grad school includes:

- 6 chapters for Biblical Hermenuticas
- 7 chapters for Basic Skills in CC
- one page paper for Basic Skills in CC
- 2 chapters for Spiritual Formation
- 8 chapters for Premarital & Marriage Counseling
- 6 pg paper for PMC
- Test on Friday in PMC
- Test on Friday morn in BSCC
- and some other randomness

They told me in college that I could sleep when I graduated...I just didn't realize they meant graduation from grad school....

Kill me now.

Well the last few weeks has been crazy! Between work, seminary, and apartment fiascos I've nearly shut down.

Episode 1: Been crazy with customers. Last night we had a crisis in the kitchen. We were short one cook & had a newbie guy for an expo (guy who trays up the food) & he got overwhelmed & walked off the line. Great.... Had tickets on 30 mins. GRRRRRR!

Episode 2: Was waiting for seminary application to go thru.

Episode 3: Met two girls who were desperate need for a third roommate in two weeks time. Met them---seemed nice. Found beautiful apartment (www.redriverranch.biz). So am now moving in this Sat--even though I haven't started packing yet.

Still need a cosigner asap & blah. In short been crazy, cause now I'm dealing with a transfer to another chilis. AHHHHH!!! Stop the maddness!

On the plus side, I'm nearly done with Christmas shopping!!!

12 days till Christmas
3 days till parents help me move
0 time for dawdling.

I wearily dropped onto my bed today. The dogs eagerly jumped up, tails waggin and tongues hanging. Living away from home has become easier with the dogs in the house. I love dogs and returning to a once empty house to find excited balls of fur waiting is a great feeling. I've never had indoor dogs in any home I've known so I quite enjoy their presence.

Even though I have been on an emotional high since DNOW, I found myself depress today. I'm not really sure why. Probably my exhaustion and weekly routine is catching up to me.

Lucky for me, Callie and Ernie (dogs) easily get me smilin. Watchin a bit of Law & Order to take my mind off of stupid, depressing thoughts, I realize I was blessed for my life.

I had found a friend here in Texas who had become my accountability partner. I have cheap living expenses. Love my job--even though its crazy at times. Shall, hopefully, be starting school soon.

I'm a lot better off then some. My living conditions aren't my problem. It's the passing through day to day that wears out my soul. Praise God for the dogs. They add a spark to my life that gets me smiling.

Strange how a something simple can make you depress and then another simple thing can make you totally happy. God your wonderful.

After an amazing weekend at DNOW, I've had no interest to write. I have decided they are wasting a part of my life that should be dedicated to God. I believe my ficiton writings end with these last two stories.

I am tempted to leave them unfinished, but I hate to do that to the readers. Plus, there are only a handful chapters left. I shall finish these, but I joyfully announce I shall no longer be posting anything on Fanfiction.Net or Mediminer.org.

My time is better served for the Lord. Fictional writing takes a great deal of my time & thus, I have stolen away time with God. There is so much I have pushed aside so I might write. I don't want to do that anymore.

These stories shall be completed before the end of December. I shall, hopefully, be starting seminary in Jan so there won't be anymore time for writing anyway.

Important note: I dedicate Through Smudged Glass to God. My first intentions for writing the short story was for fun, but it became more. It's theme is deeply spiritual and close to my heart. I hope people will read it and wish to understand more.

Thank you, Lord, for the opportunity to turn something selfish into something Godly.

Bad Dreams: 3 chapters left
TSG: 2 chapters left
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Total: Five chapters in five weeks

*Peeks head out of bedroom door*

*Seeing no one, Roshi begins to tip toe down stairway, wearing Chilis uniform*

*Reaching the bottom, frig in kitchen crashes open, spilling out half-frozen readers. The closest reader leaps to her feet and points at the pale writer.* "She's back!"

*Roshi regains the use of her limbs and streaks out the house.*

*By the time the readers can shake the ice off their bodies, Roshi's car is gunning out of the drive way. Hopefully, the readers wouldn't dare disturb her workplace.*

*Readers clutch chapter 10 of Through Smudged Glass*

*Blinks rapidly* "This isn't a new chapter! It's chapter 9 with the number changed at the top!"

*Roshi grins sheepishly* "Errr...I meant to finish, but I got busy setting up my lesson plans."

*Readers quickly grab pitchforks and torches* "GET HER!"

*Roshi races out of scene with smoke trailing* "SORRY!"

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More to be seen & heard Sunday.

*Hides behind walls of pillows warily looks at horde of readers closing in. Roshi cringes when they begin to foam at the mouth.*

*Hastily throws out Chapter 10 of Through Smudged Glass. Readers franically race after fluttering pages in mass hysteria.*

*Roshi races out of door, never intending to see her computer until Sunday.*

"Yay, DiscipleNOW!"

*Anxiously hides under bed*

*looks sheepishly at readers* "I'll be away from my computer for three days so I won't be able to update anything, any time soon."

*Hastily burrows behind randomn objects and disappears down trap door*

*Muffle cry fades off* "Please don't kill me!"

Little to say. Got off of work and settled at my computer to massive amount work on various subjects. I was swapping between two different stories, working with video clips, checking for updates, and my email when the little pig lit up on my cell. Yippee, Hannah finally got thru to me after two weeks of missing calls.

Updates:
(1)Bad Dreams--Chapter 16 is posted. It's short, but full of drama.
(2)Through Smudged Glass--chapter 9 is 1/3 completed. Hoping to have it posted as soon as Saturday.
(3) Snowflakes--2 1/3 pgs completed. How many pages will it include? Uncertain. I refuse to do more than one chapter b/c of approaching school time so I plan to write until I deem it complete. Could be as long as twenty-five pages.

For Hannah, to reach these stories go to Fanfiction.Net and do a search for the name angelwings1. It will bring up a lot of names, but I'm the only angelwings1 and shall have the number 7 next to my name.

Until the next time.

*Sigh* Home alone and waiting for "Heroes" to start on nbc. Just finished reading an unfinished fanfic and hitting myself in the head for ever reading it because I am left totally hanging. I try to avoid incomplete stories out of the frustation I get for waiting on people to update. I always find the stories that update every 2 months. I am not a woman of patience.

Anyways, nothing much to say. I've started on my oneshot Sailor Moon A/U. I'm really excited to begin it & have pushed aside my beloved "Bad Dreams" fic. However, I've begun chapter 16 out of guilt.

Through Smudged Glass is nearly at its end. Thank God! This is a draining fic. Not sure why.

Later.

Too out of it to comment. Drained from double yesterday.

*Stretches for keyboard* "Must finish chapter..."

*Falls over dead*

Things to do:
(1) complete application for school spring semester
(2)Read another chapter of Captivating
(3) Clean room
(4) dishes
(5) change bed sheets
(6) laundry
(7) write, write, write
(8) Do quiet time

Things completed:
(1) written paragraph of chapter 8 for Through Smudged Glass
(2) Shift at work
(3) um...lunch?

Intentions for next hour: Workout & shower

Intentions for tonight: slacking off....again

I think I'm slipping back onto my carbonated beverages. Sadly, this town is known for its--ahem--tasty water so when I'm dying of thirst at work, I either swallow the odd liquid or I drink the dehydrating carbonation. Grrrrrr.... Normally I would never care, but being on filter water for the last 6 months instead of tap has made me soft.

Hopefully, when I move closer to school in the next year, I'll find better water.

Tuning in on my fanfics, I've had major writer's block this pass week. The last three chapters of Bad Dreams shot out like missils, but when I reached chapter 15 I could barely type out the first paragrpahs. The story is reaching its end and I'm trying to make sure everything falls into place while still figuring out several details I've ignored. Hopefully, everything will pan out how I want it to.

On Through Smudged Glass, I've got 2-3 chapters left. Which I'm sure is hardly expected by the avid readers, but that's what there is.

I'm hoping to start on "Room 336" soon. I'm eager to do my first RK fic, but as I anticipate it's beginning, I wonder exactly the extent of the oneshot.

"Snowflakes" [a sailor moon fic] is shifting uneasily through my brain. I was eager to throw out my own Mercury/Zoi romance, but I'm not sure if I can keep to a one shot. I keep envisioning the cutest scenes to throw in.

My brain is too busy.

Lately, I've gone against my better judgment and kept the tv on Sex in the City as I've shifted through the many windows on my computer. With limited channels, Sex in the City has remained on my television. I rarely keep up with the show, but when I do I find myself laughing at how ridiculous the characters are. I understand that people never truly grow up so I can use the analogy that they are childish, but they hardly rank any level in maturity.

I balked completely when one exclaimed, "Nothing is more important than sex."

Been the believing Christian that I am, of course my first thought was "GOD, Maybe!"

But letting the thought sink further, I grew more frustrated with the show. Even if I wasn't Christian I couldn't have accepted the line as anything beyond shallow. In short, I find the characters one dimensional and stupid. They are hilarious to watch at times, but I can get much more out of the show out of random laughs. I begin to think, what a waste of time.